💌 410. Even as All My Body's Functions Come to a Halt

Despite using the medication prescribed by Yeongam Daeseong Hospital, the pain throughout my body only intensified. Now, even the strong painkillers did not work at all. My throat was swollen, filled with tiny nodules looking like hulled millet, making it impossible to even swallow saliva. Even if I tried to force myself to eat, the food could not be accepted or consumed at all. With no bowel movements for a long time, the excruciating pain, akin to my insides being twisted, persisted. Before, I had given birth to babies without a single groan, almost at the brink of death, and I was someone who offered up all sorts of severe pain.

However, at that time, I was in so much agony that tears flowed uncontrollably even when I tried to remain still. Each moment of breathing was death itself and I simply could not endure or survive in this state any longer. So, once again, I returned to Yeongam Daeseong Hospital.

‘For the sake of my mother and children, I must live, no matter what.’ I was in an extremely desperate and urgent state. The path of pain that I walked struggling alone in agony with no one to help me! Unable to walk properly, I practiced Semchigo, considering it as if I were comfortably taking a taxi, wiping away tears again and again. I walked for a long while and got on a bus. It might have been an easy route for an ordinary person but for me, it was an exceedingly burdensome path.

On the way to the hospital, I repeated flipping down and standing up countless times but with a determination to stay alive and with all my strength, I finally made it to the hospital. I entered the doctor’s office and earnestly pleaded with him, trying hard to hold back my overflowing tears. "Please, doctor, help me somehow. I can not bear this anymore. Please take some measures for me to have a bowel movement. I feel like I am going to die if I go on like this. Doctor, I have to live, I really do."

But the doctor looked at me with a look of pity, “Madam, you have come again. I explained thoroughly last time that the medication would not work. I suggested going to a larger hospital for further examinations.” Still, I pleaded desperately, “Doctor, please do anything for me.” He sighed deeply, “Goodness, as I said before, it is useless.”

“I am begging you. I can not die like this, leaving my four children behind.” “Oh my… Let us do some tests then.” Reluctantly, the doctor ordered a nurse to conduct various basic tests and a blood test. Then, the head nurse, whom I had seen several times before, greeted me with a kind smile.

"Hello, you have come again. Have you been to a university hospital?" "No." How could I say I could not afford it or that I had no one to take me there! The head nurse, looking at me with compassion, took me to the examination room. “Let me measure your blood pressure,” She wrapped the blood pressure cuff around my arm to measure my blood pressure. (At that time, only manual blood pressure cuffs were available.)

But after the first try, the head nurse tilted her head, “It is strange... Could I try on the other arm?” She switched arms multiple times to measure my blood pressure. Eventually, she said, “Hmm... I can not measure your blood pressure. Shall I try a blood test?” Then she brought a blood test kit and placed a tourniquet on my arm to make my veins stand out more before drawing blood by pressing it.

She tried for a long time to find a vein, tapping different regions of my arm, but even to my inexperienced eyes, no vein was visible. The nurse struggled for so long but when she could not find a vein, she moved to my other arm, then the wrist, leg, ankle, and so on... She sweated profusely while trying to find a vein in every possible draw site, making her utmost effort.

She even stuck a likely draw site with a needle several times, but failed to find a vein, only causing me immense pain. Despite the pain, I felt sorry for the nurse who was struggling and apologizing to me. So, I asked her for forgiveness, saying with a smile, "I am really sorry that you had to go through so much trouble because of me." and practiced Semchigo as if it did not hurt at all.

After struggling for a long time, the head nurse called two more nurses to help locate the vein, but they could not find it, either. The head nurse said, "I have been working at the hospital for nearly several decades, being confident that I am good at finding veins, but this is the first time I have failed despite making such efforts. I am truly sorry." She apologized and called in the director doctor and another doctor.

The two doctors, who heard the whole story, rolled up their sleeves and tried hard to find a vein. When they thought they had finally found one, they stuck a needle into my vein, even exclaiming joyfully, "Ah!" But the vein thin like a thread burst before the needle slid deeper. As a result, without receiving any tests, I ended up back in the examination room with the doctor.

A serious look on the doctor’s face made me restless. But for the sake of my family, I abandoned my face-saving and pleaded once more, “Doctor, I failed to have a blood test but would you please hear about my symptoms and take some measures? I have not had a bowel movement and lately, even urinating has become difficult.” He shook his head as if it was impossible. Instead, he had me lie down on the examination bed and began palpating my abdomen.

Every abdominal region that he palpated hurt so much that I let out a groan in spite of myself. “Ugh!” He proceeded with the palpation, observing my reactions. After completing the abdominal palpation, he spoke to me firmly.

* The fact that the little soul stayed alive for such a long time without a bowel movement was considered as God's help. When food is consumed, the leftovers ferment and putrefy in the intestines. The toxins and harmful substances produced at that time need to be expelled through bowel movements. However, if they remain in the intestines, these toxins and harmful substances can be reabsorbed through the intestinal mucosal blood vessels.

As a result, these toxins and harmful substances spread throughout the whole body via the bloodstream, causing inflammation in the blood vessels, septicemia, and in severe cases, even leading to cancer. Additionally, complications such as intestinal obstruction, intestinal mucosal necrosis, and peritonitis can lead to death. There are indeed cases of people dying from such causes. No matter how the little soul did not eat but vomited over all this time, how could she have been alive for so long without having a bowel movement!

God allowed the little soul intense sufferings from her childhood to the brink of death to discipline her in the furnace of sufferings in order to use her as His instrument. But in moments of crisis, He always extended His wings to embrace and save her. This undoubtedly signifies the infinite mercy of God.