630. Offering the Pain of Thousands and Tens of Thousands of Rays of Light Piercing like Needles During the Vision

💌 630. Offering the Pain of Thousands and Tens of Thousands of Rays of Light Piercing like Needles During the Vision

I have always deeply reflected on the importance of the role of volunteers in the Charismatic Renewal Movement. Therefore, I constantly resolved, again and again, to serve with the loving heart of Jesus and the Blessed Mother, by becoming “the lowly.” With that intention, wherever I went, I would clean others' shoes and fervently offer the Prayers of Life.

“O humble Jesus, just as You washed the feet of Your disciples, I will lower myself again and again.” By lowering myself willingly, tying someone’s shoelaces, or cleaning their shoes, I felt very, very much joy and happiness. Thinking that I was following Jesus as He was descending to the lowest place, everything appeared beautiful, and it became joy itself.

One day, I attended the National Charismatic Renewal Retreat for Volunteers. Seeing many volunteers gathered from all over the country for the Lord, I felt renewed and refreshed. I was truly grateful for them but at the same time, I felt a sense of sadness. It was because I had witnessed volunteers seeking to elevate themselves and exerted in a domineering way on others quite a lot. I prayed fervently to Jesus that both they and I would be able to fulfill the role of being a servant through this retreat.

On the second day, during a homily by Father Lin, who had been invited from abroad, I noticed that the sister sitting next to me was dozing off. Since coming to know Jesus, I have faced many attacks from devils who fill the sky and earth. One of them is the “sleeping devil,” which causes us to fall asleep and prevents us from hearing the good word. I prayed an exorcism prayer, hoping the sister would awaken, saying, “Lord! Drive away the sleeping devil!”  

While offering the Prayer of Life, I took the sister’s hand and in a way that would not upset her, gently said, “Sister, you must be feeling bored, right? Even if it is boring, if you try to absorb the priest's good words not just with your mind but with your heart, the Lord, who is the Truth, will open our dull hearts wide and lead us with His broad love.” 

And I prayed to the Lord for all the volunteers who participated in the retreat. “Lord! Be with all of us who have gathered at this time to offer ourselves up to You and guide us with the Holy Spirit to not become broken vessels which are unable to hold water. So, may we all cast off our old clothes and become pure souls adorned with new clothes and grant that we may breathe, move and live only in Your love.”

The sister sitting next to me became energetic and vibrant before I knew it and she was listening to the homily attentively. I could feel that the Lord had helped her and I was filled with joy. I listened to the priest’s homily practicing Semchigo as if I were listening to Jesus and any good words that were spiritually beneficial, I accepted with an “Amen!” as the very words of Jesus. As I was concentrating and straining my ears, the Lord showed me a vision.

Suddenly, from the crucifix on the altar, countless brilliant rays of light spread out beautifully and those rays poured down toward me! The innumerable rays of light instantly pierced my eyes, mouth, ears and chest. But it felt as though thousands and tens of thousands of needles were piercing me, accompanied by excruciating pain and I felt as if I could no longer breathe. At that moment, I collapsed backward.

Barely coming to my senses, I got up and thought, “How much must Jesus have loved me to grant me the realization of my desire to participate in His suffering in such a way?” I cried out loudly to the Lord, “Oh, Jesus! I am so, so grateful that even through this beautiful light, You have allowed me to participate in Your suffering!” I offered Him deep thanks, praise, glory and adoration.

Thinking about how the souls, who speak sinfully with their mouths while being spiritually blind and deaf, cause such extreme suffering to the Sacred Heart of the Lord, tears filled my eyes. I offered up all that suffering so joyfully and cried out to the Lord, “Oh, Lord! Thank You. Every time sinners do wrong, You suffer so much like this!”

Grant that for the number of rays of light that pierced me, sinners may repent. And may the Heart of the Lord, wounded by sinners, receive comfort and be glorified and may all of our gratitude never dry up.” At that moment, I heard the contented voice of Jesus. 

“Yes, my Little Soul! This world is already covered in darkness because of all its wickedness and sins and even the children of the Church have become tainted by errors. Despite how much I speak, many are spiritually blind and deaf, so they cannot see or hear, and My heart is deeply pained.

However, you offer praise and glory to Me every day and every moment through your loving communion with many souls. It is by making my love your table and feeding many the picked fruit of love, thus quenching the boundless thirst of both me and my mother.” 

My personal reflection note with Mama Julia🌹💗 

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