626. The Lord Himself Directly Confirmed That He Speaks Through My Mouth

💌 626. The Lord Himself Directly Confirmed That He Speaks Through My Mouth

From the time I did not even know God, there have been times when the Lord gave me a strong feeling in my heart or caused unexpected words to come out of my mouth to guide me. Remarkably, the things I said despite my own will unexpectedly always happened as per spoken. After I was diagnosed with terminal cancer, my husband, Julio, was suddenly transferred to Naju, even though it was not the appropriate official time for transfers.

However, I had already felt a strong intuition before that, so I told Julio that he might be transferred and asked him to inform his superior in advance to ensure it did not happen. However, Julio confidently assured me, saying, “Honey, that will never happen!” in a loud voice but it happened exactly as I had said. After I came to know the Lord, such occurrences became more frequent. There was one instance when the Lord made it clear to me that the words that suddenly came out of my mouth were indeed His words.

The Charismatic Renewal Retreat for the Archdiocese of Gwangju took place over three days and two nights at a mountain near Little Flower Sisters’ Center. Since the retreat was led by Mr. Ha Seung-baek, a renowned volunteer who was the key organizer of the first Charismatic Renewal Seminar and the founding president of the Charismatic Prayer Group, the volunteers were highly motivated. However, there was a small issue during the preparation.

The retreat participants needed to be served three meals a day for the three-day, two-night event. The volunteers had to shop in advance and prepare the ingredients according to the number of participants, but there was no way to estimate how many people would attend. Since this retreat featured Mr. Ha Seung-baek, unlike usual, it seemed even more likely that a large number of believers would join, making the uncertainty all the more frustrating. Unable to gauge the number of participants, everyone at the volunteers’ meeting felt stuck.

At that moment, President Paul Lee asked me, “How many people do you think will come?” Despite myself, I answered, “I think about 150 people will come.” Then, the volunteers started saying here and there, “That is impossible, not that many will come,” and some even dismissed me, saying, “Julia does not know well, so she is saying such things.”

At that time, I had already begun to realize that the words that suddenly came out of my mouth were not my own but rather the guidance of the Lord. Since I was embarrassed in front of many people, I was on the verge of feeling ashamed. However, I offered it up with Semchigo as if they had accepted my words well, with them saying, “Yes, that might be possible this time.”

Some people guessed, “I think about 100 people will come.” Even the future president, Mr. Aloysius, said, “Even if it is a lot, I do not think it will exceed 130.” However, on the day of the retreat, 151 people actually participated but on the first night, one person left for home, so exactly 150 people ended up attending.

President Paul Lee said, “Wow, it happened just as Julia had said,” amazed and asked me to help by assisting Mr. Ha Seung-baek. I responded with “Amen,” and feeling incredibly grateful for Mr. Ha’s coming all the way from Seoul to Gwangju, I took extra care, with Semchigo as if serving Jesus. I ran errands, such as bringing him water and massaged his shoulders when he rested.

But then, Mr. Ha said, “With the gift of healing in your hands, it really makes a difference. It is so refreshing!” I had never mentioned that I had received the gift of healing and I had only done it out of love, so I was very surprised when he said that.

I replied, “Sir, I am just a very unworthy sinner. If you feel refreshed from me massaging your shoulders, it is not something I did. Since the Lord needed it, He must have briefly used my hands to massage you. If anything went wrong, it was done by me, the unworthy one.”

Then, with a gentle smile, Mr. Ha held my hands tightly and said, “Yes, yes, if you continue to work with that heart, the Lord will be very pleased. Julia! Please make sure not to lose that beautiful heart and keep it well while serving, okay?”

Since I am just an unworthy sinner, I quickly said, “Oh, sir! It is the Lord who made me have a beautiful heart. But if I have ever caused harm to anyone’s heart, it is because of my own faults. And if you find me beautiful, it is because your heart is beautiful and my actions must appear beautiful in your eyes.

Following your words, I will do my best to live in a way that pleases the Lord, regardless of what people say in this world and strive to live beautifully. I am just an unworthy sinner, so please remember me in your prayers.”

“Yes, let us remember each other in our prayers,” he said, holding my hand tightly and smiling brightly as he resolved. As the night of the retreat deepened, I suddenly remembered that the number of participants I had unexpectedly mentioned earlier had turned out to be exactly correct. 

I was reflecting on what I had unknowingly answered at the volunteer meeting that day when I heard the gentle voice of Jesus. “My adorable baby! Have you already forgotten that I live within you? It is I who spoke those words through your mouth.”

“Amen! O my Jesus! I thank You for speaking through the mouth of this unworthy sinner, so that we may prepare well in advance. Lord, You who grant graces in the necessary measure at the right time, may You be glorified, praised, and worshiped! Amen!”

My personal reflection note with Mama Julia🌹💗 

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