699. Reconciliation Brought About Through Prayer When I Accepted Her as a Benefactor Who Led Me to Humility

💌 699. Reconciliation Brought About Through Prayer When I Accepted Her as a Benefactor Who Led Me to Humility

On the way to sister Veronica’s house with Mr. Rufino, we passed by a church. It was there that Jesus once again poked the designated part on my body. I quickly understood what it meant and said, “Let us stop by the church and spend some time in Eucharistic adoration.” As soon as I suggested this, the sharp pain disappeared.

As we entered the church, I noticed a pond, so I said, “Mr. Rufino, let us stop by the pond for a moment.” “Why?” “Even though we have been praying and offering up to the Lord and the Blessed Mother today, we are still inadequate sinners. Let us wash our hands and feet in this pond with Semchigo as if we were cleansing our souls and the sick souls and filthy stains of sinners with the Precious Blood of Jesus.”

Upon hearing this, Rufino agreed willingly. I was able to offer up the persecution and suffering I endured from sister Veronica with joy. However, I was concerned that because of me, she often became angry and fell into the sin of judgment. So, I went down to the pond and prayed as preparation before going to sister Veronica’s house.

We went down to the pond, meditating on the words Jesus spoke at the Last Supper, when He washed His disciples’ feet, saying, “If I, therefore, the master and teacher, have washed your feet, you ought to wash one another’s feet.” While reflecting on this, we washed each other’s hands and feet. Until then, while praying, I had never simply held a man’s hand.

I always held a rosary in my hand, so instead of holding hands directly, we would each hold the rosary. That day as well, while washing Rufino’s hands and feet with the rosary still in my hand, I prayed, “With the Precious Blood from Your Five Wounds, pierced Head, and Sacred Heart, cleanse our and sister Veronica’s defiled souls and bodies, and break through whatever is blocked in our souls and bodies. So may all people in this world forgive one another, reconcile, and become united in love, becoming handkerchiefs of love to wipe away the Lord’s Blood and Sweat, and rags to cleanse souls, thereby fulfilling the Lord’s will.”

I especially prayed with all my heart that that sister and I would truly reconcile, be renewed in love, and become united as one, as the preparational prayer.

After completing our prayer at the pond and the Eucharistic adoration, we went to sister Veronica’s house. As we entered, she greeted Mr. Rufino with great joy. So I said, “Sister, I came too,” but her expression instantly hardened, as if she had bitten into a bitter persimmon. Though it was disheartening, I promptly offered it up, practicing Semchigo as if she had welcomed me with a bright smile.

In fact, Mr. Rufino, who was determined to take me by all means to that sister’s house even though I had been reluctant, was well aware that I was going through difficulties because of her. Yet, even after seeing the expression on sister Veronica’s face, he did not say a single word about why I had come to her house.

However, after I offered it up through Semchigo as if he had said, “Julia came because I asked her to,” I did not feel any disappointment at all. Still, it was quite difficult to step inside. Just then, her husband gave her a gentle nudge in the side and quickly said, “Please, come on in,” as he ushered us into the room.

Since sister Veronica’s husband had also been serving diligently as a fellow volunteer in the Holy Spirit Ministry, I was already acquainted with him. At that point, there was no turning back, so I offered it up, saying, “Lord, please be with us in love.” At that very moment, I heard the Lord’s gentle voice whisper in my ear, “Yes, do not worry. Go on in.”

I prayed, “Jesus, no matter how I am persecuted, that is alright. But it must not be that her heart is troubled because of me. Please melt her heart.” With that prayer, I entered the room without worry. Though there was some awkwardness between us at first, we began praying and praising together while holding hands.

As the prayer was coming to an end, the entire room turned into a sea of tears, with everyone sobbing aloud. After the prayer, I shared—for the first time—about my life from childhood and my experiences of faith. As soon as I finished, sister Veronica, who had been quietly listening, grabbed me and began to weep.

“Julia, I am so sorry for having tormented you all this time. Truly, I am sorry. Please forgive me. I never really understood you. From today on, we are more closely united than even blood siblings. How could I have treated someone as good as you so harshly? And yet, you always greeted me with a smile, saying thank you and expressing gratitude.

“At that time, I even hated it when you said thank you to me. I turned a blind eye to your sincerity and treated you so cruelly. Please, forgive me, will you? Julia!” I answered, “Sister, I was the one at fault. You are my benefactor.” She replied, “How could I be your benefactor? I persecuted you so much, yet you still see me in a good light. Thank you.”

Today, you have truly become my younger sister. The Lord has reunited us this day… From now on, let us remain united and work together in the love of the Lord and the Blessed Mother, without ever changing. Shall we?” She held me tightly in her arms and continued to weep for a long time, and I responded with “Amen!” and wept aloud, almost sobbing uncontrollably.

The whole room turned into a sea of tears, as if a dam had burst all at once. “Oh Lord, thank You. You, the Lord of heaven and earth, the source of all creation—how can we ever fathom the height, depth, and breadth of Your love? O wondrous Lord of love! May the grace You have poured out upon us today also be granted to all people throughout the world, so that we may each become a grain of wheat that falls and dies to itself, blooming into beautiful love.

May all people of the world come to realize that, in order to learn Your warm and selfless love, even humiliation and anger must be conquered, so that Your Kingdom may be established in this world. With unwavering perseverance against any attack, we humbly move forward with passion for the Lord, walking on the way of little ones’ love, desiring that Your will may be fulfilled through us, though we are unworthy.”

“Oh, my beloved, my Little Soul! The devil has persistently and cunningly unleashed every means to torment you and bring you down. Yet, with your tender love and humility toward me, you have always triumphed over the devil of division, and my heart is filled with boundless joy.”

When we follow the Lord and the Blessed Mother, even if we face persecution and hatred from others, if we offer up our wounded hearts graciously, thinking, “Yes, this is God’s plan to lead me to humility,” and continue to pray for the other person with love, considering them a benefactor, the merciful Lord will surely bring about unity through reconciliation and love.

My personal reflection note with Mama Julia🌹💗 

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