690. At the Healing of My Terminal Cancer, They Responded, “So, No Need for Doctors or Pharmacists?”

💌 690. At the Healing of My Terminal Cancer, They Responded, “So, No Need for Doctors or Pharmacists?”

It was my turn to host the Sacred Heart Society’s monthly meeting at my house. I was concerned about what they might discuss, but I entrusted everything to Jesus and the Blessed Mother. I prayed while sprinkling holy water throughout the beauty parlor. “O, beloved Jesus! Shine the light of mercy from Your Burning Sacred Heart upon us. Please personally guide this gathering, so that, at least for today, the members of the Sacred Heart Society may engage in conversations filled with joy, love, and peace, in the true love of Jesus and the Blessed Mother.”

To the members who came to Jeong Beauty Parlor, I served food that I had lovingly prepared with the seasoning of love through the Prayers of Life, and I shared with them the things I had experienced. At that time, I would spend the whole day on my feet doing hair for customers, and though I went to bed with an exhausted body, I always had to wake up in the middle of the night to replace the coal briquettes.

Because I had to do it every single day, it was indeed very difficult. However, I did it joyfully with a heart of martyrdom, meditating on the principle of the briquettes. I shared this reflection with the members of the Sacred Heart Society, hoping that they too would humble themselves and go low, taking on the role of igniting the fire of love from beneath.

“When we light a new briquette, we first place a fully burning briquette underneath, then put the new, black one on top, right? The briquette at the bottom burns itself completely to ignite the new briquette and breathe life into it. However, no matter how hot and fiercely it burns, if the burning briquette is placed on top instead of at the bottom, it cannot ignite the new briquette below.”

As I meditated on this, I realized that it is only when we lower ourselves that we can truly ignite the fire of love in others. However, they said, “Oh dear, what kind of boring story is that?” “That is right! So stop with the dull talk and tell us something more interesting.” I prayed, “O Lord, please speak through my lips so that Your glory may be revealed to these stubborn hearts.”

I shared my faith experience with them for the first time, explaining how I was healed from terminal cancer by entrusting myself to Him through prayer and came back to life, living a second life. However, as I joyfully shared my story, their expressions gradually hardened, and the wives of the pharmacist and the hospital director began to mock me. “What a ridiculous story! If it were Julia, all the hospitals and pharmacies would close down and go bankrupt!” they laughed. “Exactly. Listen to yourself. So, no need for doctors or pharmacists?” they said, growing angry.

I was shocked and heartbroken by their unexpected reaction. However, I accepted it with Semchigo as if I were loved and offered it up. I thought, “Ah, there were those who do not believe in miracles, like the hospital director’s wife and the pharmacist’s wife. I must have made a mistake.” Realizing this, I immediately accepted it as my fault, acknowledging that they were distracted because of me, and I asked for their forgiveness.

“If I have spoken out of turn, please forgive me. My sincere apologies. I will never say such words again.” After that, I never shared my faith experience again. Even when I was asked to testify during a retreat at the parish, I did not. I could gladly offer up the insults and judgments I received from others, accepting them with Semchigo as if I were loved, and with the heart of participating in the humiliation that Jesus received. However, it deeply pained me to know that they were sinning because of me.

At that time, whenever I did something that was not in accordance with the Jesus’s will, He would poke a specific area He had designated for me. So I asked Him, “My beloved Jesus, since there are members of the Sacred Heart Society who continue to commit sins because of me, would it be better for me to step down?” He did not poke the designated area. So I went to see the Superior nun.

“Sister, I would rather step down from the Sacred Heart Society than continue seeing people commit sins because of me. As you know, whenever we gather, there is so much gossip and worldly talk. What spiritual benefit can there be in that? So please grant me permission to step down.”

With the superior nun’s permission, I stepped down from the Sacred Heart Society. I had joined with the desire to share the burning love of the Sacred Heart of Jesus. However, after leaving, I felt as though a heavy burden had been lifted from my chest. I no longer had to hear words of criticism and judgment while praying. Listening to gossip was that painful for me.

I prayed for the spiritual sanctification of the Sacred Heart members and offered up all the difficulties I experienced, with Semchigo as if I had received love from them. Since the time I was a catechumen, Jesus had appeared to me several times, revealing His Heart torn and bleeding, which made my heart ache all the more. However, I united even this pain of mine with the sufferings of His Sacred Heart, and I offered it up for their repentance and spiritual sanctification, and for the conversion of sinners. With renewed resolve, I made a new start once again.

My personal reflection note with Mama Julia🌹💗 

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