687. Quit the Charismatic Renewal Movement to Do the Work In a Humble Hidden Place Like Washing Dishes

💌 687. Quit the Charismatic Renewal Movement to Do the Work In a Humble Hidden Place Like Washing Dishes

As I was about to quit my work as a volunteer for the Charismatic Renewal Movement, the president of the Charismatic Renewal Movement of the Gwangju Archdiocese, President Paul, repeatedly tried to stop me, saying, “Julia, we cannot do without you. What should we do?” He had always told me, “Julia, you are truly a treasure for our Charismatic Renewal Movement,” and he made every effort to not let me go.

I was always grateful and sorry to President Paul, but now, without standing before people, I wanted to work in humble hiding, where no one could see me. So, I prayed, "Lord! Until now, I have prepared a feast and fed many people. From now on, I will do work like dishwashing in humble places—where I will never be seen, in a place unnoticed and unrecognized by anyone." With that, I fully offered up my suffering to the Lord and gradually stepped back from my role as a volunteer for the Charismatic Renewal Movement.

One day, President Paul Lee let out a deep sigh and said, “I tried to hold on tightly to Julia as a volunteer for the Charismatic Movement, but it does not seem like it will work.” Since the early days, the president had been serving in the Charismatic Renewal for a long time and had received many gifts of the Holy Spirit, often seeing visions. He then shared with me a vision he had seen while praying for me not long ago.

“In a vast and empty mountain with no one around, you were standing all alone, Julia—lonely. So I thought to myself, ‘Why is Julia standing there all by herself?’ Then, before I knew it, you were standing high up on a big pine tree. At that moment, an invisible hand reached out to you and dressed you in an incredibly beautiful, pure white garment—like that of an angel, something never seen in this world,” he said.

He told me that afterward, an enormous number of people gathered in the vast and empty mountain—so many that only their heads could be seen, densely packed, filling the entire mountain. At that moment, he said, I shouted loudly toward the great crowd. Even then, the chairman did not let me go, saying, “You must be someone meant to do even greater things. Still, please continue serving in the Charismatic Renewal a little longer.” 

Then, some time later, one day, with a somewhat disappointed expression, he said, “Julia, it seems you really have to go after all.” He then shared another vision he had seen while praying for me. “I saw you riding a white horse. No matter how hard I tried to hold you back, it was no use—you rode away on the white horse, waving a palm branch.”

At that time, the visions Chairman Paul Lee saw were usually quite accurate. However, I said, “I am not worthy to stand in a high place and proclaim the Word, nor to ride a white horse and wave a palm branch.” I simply thought that the Lord was merely helping me step away from serving in the Charismatic Renewal. 

“President, I am just an unworthy and lacking sinner. So I will do humble work in hiding like dishwashing,” I said. Only then did the president accept my decision and stopped trying to persuade me.

“Oh, Lord! My Beloved! You have brought me down to a lowly place, and for that, I give You thanks. If it is suffering for You, what would I ever refuse? Though belatedly, You have allowed me to realize true love and to see You even more clearly. You have embraced and held me, though I am weak and lacking. As an ashamed sinner, may I always keep You within me so that I may faithfully fulfill the mission You have entrusted to me.”

“My beloved little child! Hiding yourself is an act of humility, not shame. How could I possibly refuse such a profoundly noble request from you? Your noble petition, in which you worked in hiding without revealing yourself and were even willing to lay down your life, will be fulfilled just as you have asked. Moreover, the plan of salvation that My Mother and I wish to carry out will surely be realized through you. So, hold My hand tightly and come even closer to Me.

You have humbled yourself and made yourself small for My sake, so your name is already recorded in the Book of Life. However, always be vigilant. The cunning devil will mobilize every scheme to bring you down. So, always remain awake in prayer and completely immerse yourself in Me."

My personal reflection note with Mama Julia🌹💗 

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