593. All the Volunteers Have Left, Nevertheless, I Did Not Accept Those Who Wanted to Volunteer

💌 593. All the Volunteers Have Left, Nevertheless, I Did Not Accept Those Who Wanted to Volunteer

In the midst of extreme pain, I was almost crawling as I managed the household alone, cared for the Blessed Mother’s House and did everything possible to help my mother heal, all while offering up the pain of the bloody tears that were shedding within me. One day, Rufino entered my house and said, “Julia, sister Melania Kang from Anyang has come and insists on meeting you.”

Although it was not a situation where I could meet anyone, meditating the Hearts of the Lord and the Blessed Mother who do not want even a single soul to be abandoned, I responded with an “Amen.” I met her in the Chapel office, where she introduced herself and described how she came to pilgrimage to the Blessed Mother’s House. She said that while praying in a church, the Blessed Mother appeared to her and said “Go to Naju,” so she accepted this and came to Naju.

She added that when she was praying in the Chapel, the Blessed Mother of Naju, Who sheds Tears, appeared moving and said, “Clean up. Help with the kitchen work.” Then she mentioned that she was in the middle of a three-day fast to follow the Lord’s will. Feeling the love of the Blessed Mother, who thoroughly understands my pain inside and out enough to speak to a pilgrim in that way, I offered my gratitude to the Blessed Mother.

While the sister was staying at Blessed Mother’s House, she saw Rufino reading my diary in the Chapel office and asked him to let her read it as well. When he showed it to her, she said that as she read the diary, she was amazed because every 15 minutes, she had various fragrances like the scent of roses, lilies and different fragrances. One day, about a week after she had been praying in the Chapel, she wanted to meet me and we got together at my house.

She told me that about a week into her prayers in the chapel, the Blessed Mother, Who sheds tears, spoke to her. “I heard the Blessed Mother say, ‘There is no one to help in the house. You should help.’ So I thought, ‘Oh, no, I must have misheard,’ but no matter how much I tried to dismiss it, I kept hearing the same words over and over again.

So, I said, ‘If I am going to volunteer, I would rather do it in the Chapel part.’ But then ‘No, my chosen daughter is suffering greatly right now. Hurry and help her.’ I heard Her say it, from the direction of the statue of the Blessed Mother weeping Tears. That is why I decided to volunteer at your house. So, I will volunteer and help you at your house.” However, I could not readily accept her offer.

It was because it reminded me of the people who left due to false prophecies after aiming the blade of betrayal at me as well as the judgments, slanders and even lies they had hurled without hesitation, I was afraid and even terrified of people. Though I had helped them with much love, they became false prophets and attacked the Blessed Mother of Naju and me, so I had to offer up my innumerable pains inwardly and outwardly.

Still, it was okay for me because I could offer up being broken and trampled upon with Semchigo as if I were loved, for the repentance of sinners. But even if putting aside my situation, they had boldly turned their backs on the Blessed Mother, Who sheds tears and even mimicking Jesus and the Blessed Mother, which rendered them into much sin in offending God. So, I did not want to bring any further insult to Our Lord and the Blessed Mother. So, I said, “My house is fine.” She replied, “I can do it well. Our Lady told me to do it, so I will help.”

“Thank you for your kind offer. But my house is fine. If you want to volunteer, please do so in the Chapel.” “Why on earth will you not accept my offer to volunteer? I had even helped President Columba who had become crippled, to urinate and defecate, so I can do anything!” Even though I kept saying no, she continued to urge me. In fact, with all the volunteers gone, a helping hand was desperately needed.

With my back collapse, it was hard to even do the dishes, I was crawling around, pushing the sitting table to prepare meals for my mother, so how nice it would have been if I could receive some help! But to the last I declined her offer to help with the housework.
Then she said, “Then I will join in the suffering to ease your suffering a little.”

I was startled and replied, “Sister! You should not discretionally ask for suffering from the Lord. Instead of asking for suffering, be faithful to the life you have been given and whenever painful things happen in your daily life, just graciously offer up such suffering and the cross given to you for the sake of the Lord and the Blessed Mother. That alone would be enough.”

I told her that she should not ask for suffering lightly but sister Melania was persistent to the end doggedly. “No, I can do it. I will join in your suffering.” I said, “If so, then, whatever suffering comes, you must keep it mind not to blame the Lord but offer it up well.” “Of course, that goes without saying.” She said boastfully and confidently.

My personal reflection note with Mama Julia🌹💗 

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