446. Seven Wills Up in Flames: Heading Towards the Divine Presence at the Catholic Church!

💌 446. Seven Wills Up in Flames: Heading Towards the Divine Presence at the Catholic Church!

In the meantime, the cancer had spread throughout my body and the function of my body had been gradually coming to a halt. My blood circulation had been extremely poor accordingly, which caused my entire body to become as cold as a sheet of ice. It was to the extent that when my hand even slightly touched my husband by chance who was fast asleep, he would wake up, being startled and making a sound of “Ugh!” Then, he would recognize that it was me and apologize to me, “Honey, I am sorry.”

But since I accepted the priest’s word as it was, responding with “Amen,” at that very moment my whole body, which had been as cold as ice for so long, began to heat up like a roaring fire. As if a huge glacier melts with no trace under a blazing sun, my entire body was drenched in sweat flowing down.

The flames of the Holy Spirit completely engulfed me. The heat was so intense that even the priest, feeling fervor, stepped out while talking and came back in. So, I asked the priest, “Father, did you go outside because it was hot by any chance?” He replied, “Yes, it suddenly became so hot that I went out for a moment.”

At that time, not having been baptized yet, I did not have much knowledge about the Holy Spirit. Nonetheless, through the heat, my body, which had been as cold as an ice block, instantly became warm. I felt a great sense of awe and a conviction that God is truly present in the Catholic Church. I promised the priest that I would go to the Catholic Church and I returned home.

My husband said, “Honey, I will go back to my office.” He then returned to work. Being alone at home, I checked my body after my husband left. The warmth permeating my entire body which had been as cold as an ice block, clearly made me feel much lighter. The more I felt it, the more I was convinced that God had shown mercy to me.

Through God's infinite might and power, I had a new hope and confidence that my incurable disease would be completely healed. I no longer had any reason to choose death on my own! Filled with joy, I made a new resolution after coming back from the Catholic Church. "I will be weaving everything in my life anew in God, Who is truly living in the Catholic Church!"

Without delay, I burned the seven wills that I had written when I had decided to die. Though I had written them in anguish, weighed down by sighs and tears, I burned them all without the slightest regret, offering up a fervent prayer to God.

“Merciful God! I am burning the wills I had written before I went to die. However, may God burn all the cancerous lumps in my soul and body leaving no trace of them with Your blazing flames. Also, burn away all the bad things in our family so that we can be born anew with the pure love of God and obtain the victory of resurrection.

So that I can live happily in God’s love with my beloved mother and family, please lead us and manage everything for us, and may God’s will be fulfilled!” Offering this prayer, I completely burned away all the wills.

As I watched the ashes scatter into the air, leaving nothing behind, I vowed to attend the Catholic Church more ardently from now on. I remembered the holy items shop that I had seen when I left the Church. I wanted to purchase the holy items but I did not have any money since my husband had already gone back to his office. So I borrowed some money from my landlady.

On the way to the holy items shop at Naju Catholic church, my heart was so joyful as if to receive God into my home that I was running without realizing it. Even though I was running and waddling around due to the lumps of cancer, much protruding from my anus, I was so much filled with joy and God's love that I was not embarrassed.

“Oh my! Oh my! How can I, who had the cancer spreading all over even to the buttock, run at least in a waddling way, though not straightened up?” This was an astounding change that I, even myself, could not believe. Soon I arrived at Naju Catholic church and went into the religious articles shop where I found many kinds of holy items were for sale.

Since I did not have enough money in hand, I offered up with Semchigo as if I had purchased all religious items that I wanted. First of all, I chose a crucifix, a statue of the Virgin Mary, a Bible, a prayer book, a chant book, a rosary, a Mass veil and candles, I chose the smallest statue for lack of money. However, practicing Semchigo as if I had already had a big statue, I did not have my heart set on larger statues any longer.

How grateful it is to be able to have at least a small statue! As I looked around to choose the statue of Our Lady, there were two different images of Our Lady; a statue of the Virgin Mary with Her arms outstretched to both sides and the other with Her hands joined in prayer.

So, I asked, “What does this statue of the Virgin Mary mean and what does that Virgin Mary mean?” The volunteer in the shop explained, “This is the statue of Our Lady of Mercy and that is the statue of Our Lady of Prayer.” The statue of Our Lady of Mercy seemed to talk to me in a very loving way, “Come to Me, My dear daughter!” and the statue of Our Lady of Prayer seemed to be offering a fervent prayer to God for my sake.

Both statues appeared incredibly beautiful and holy. In the end, I decided to enshrine both of them. Thinking that God Himself attached His Holy Grace to every religious item, I considered it not just as purchasing them but as receiving God into my home.

I was so overjoyed that I went running back home in a waddling way once again but my steps were so light and full of joy as if God had sent an angel to give me wings. "O God," I said, "I will never again leave you for a single moment. My whole being is Yours completely. Amen!"